11 Years
Monday, July 6th, 2009Eleven years ago two people conceptualized a curriculum that would have an immense impact on the world, and change the course of my life. I am forever grateful.
I remember my first intensive: My goal was to like myself – to develop a relationship with myself, and feel proud of myself.
I remember when I won the Grand Prix of Rome – I had dreamed of winning a major competition since I was a child – it was remarkable…….. for the first hour. As the adrenaline wore off I became fearful – how had I done it? How could I do it again? The weight of expectation set in.
Two years ago I competed in my second ever triathlon, I had been up for the best part of three days working on a video project – yet I was excited for the day ahead! I had trained for the bike and run, yet my swimming abilities were rather weak! Nonetheless, I jumped in the water as the horn blew! The biking was wonderful – always my favorite, I love the intensity of going uphill and the feeling of freedom coming down. When I dropped my bike and set off for the run, my legs felt like jelly; I had three more miles of hills to run!! As we neared the end I allowed my stride to open to give the race everything I had – alas as I rounded the bend I realized there was one hill left!! I pushed up the hill and fought the pain all the way through the finish – I had not won, but I had given it all I could.
In this second story the focus was different; I learned so much about myself through the triathlon, my love for striving, my determination and strength of my will – the result was extraneous from my experience. I felt proud of me.
As my journey continues and I strive to experience and get to know more of myself, I would like to thank Keith Raniere and Nancy Salzman for being in my life. What they bring to the world is truly remarkable. Their creation of Executive Success Programs, and now NXIVM, is a wonderful gift for humankind.
